Thinking of you....

One of those times when I just feel lost and lonely. I've lost my freedom and everything feels so different now. I feel even more useless because I can't do what I want. I feel bad too for making people worry about me. So I kinda don't like myself. Jie I want to be with you. I miss you badly... I wished you were here to take care of me. It just feels horrible to be sick and not knowing I'll recover... or if I'll ever recover! What if I only get worst... what will happen? Jie, what should I do when I'm scared? I'm thinking of you with tears in my eyes but I know I need to be strong and learn to handle life on my own... with God's help of course! Jie, I love you! =)